February 2012
Emotional roller coaster.
I think I get what that feels like now.
Unrelated note: I suddenly miss the vast expanses of sky I used to see everyday in the states.
“Have your adventures, make your mistakes, and choose your friends poorly- all...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
“You make yourself strong because it’s expected of you. You become confident...”
– Jodi Picoult
This is the turning point,
isn’t it?
I wish my heart will stop all its silent raging. There is a war going on in there. Yelling, fighting, lashing, screaming. Everything, inside. Yet nothing bubbles up to the surface. It is a bloody mess which I cannot decipher, therefore I cannot voice them nor write them.
When the troops return to their corners for a break is when I am completely calm. And in those moments, I...
“Why does one begin to write? Because she feels misunderstood, I guess. Because...”
– Nicole Krauss
Shows that I watch
Currently:
2 Broke Girls
Community (on hiatus)
Glee
Greys Anatomy
How I Met Your Mother
Last Man Standing
Leverage
Mad Men (waiting on S5)
Modern Family
New Girl
Once Upon a Time
Pan Am
Pretty Little Liars
Revenge
Suburgatory
Suits (waiting on S2)
Terra Nova (waiting on S2)
The Big Bang Theory
The Mentalist
Ended/Cancelled:
Arrested Development
Flashforward
Hellcats
...
“There is a wonderful mythical law of nature that the three things we crave most...”
– Peyton Conway March
The Perks of Being a Wallflower
letthewaternotcomplain:
‘One Winter’ mixtape that Charlie gives to Patrick for their “Secret Santa.”
The Smiths - Asleep
Ride - Vapour Trail
Simon & Garfunkel - Scarborough Fair
Procol Harum - Whiter Shade of Pale
Nick Drake - Time of No Reply
The Beatles - Dear Prudence
Suzanne Vega - Gypsy
The Moody Blues - Nights In White Satin
Smashing Pumpkins - Daydream
Genesis - Dusk
U2 -...
1 tag
“It’s very easy to bastardise words into the English language.”
– Tan Jun Hong
4 tags
Is it supposed to be this difficult?
I keep asking myself this. Why do I want so much to go to the other side? If I have to try so hard all the time to stay on this side, maybe I’m not meant to be here. Maybe something is wrong with me. I am sick, somewhere, maybe. Then I think… maybe it is this difficult for everyone, and I am simply weak.
Fuck you, the whoever-it-is who knocked down the pregnant dog and drove away....
theoceanofconsciousness:
he doesn’t understand and he doesn’t pretend like he can. he is just there for me.
1 tag
Old age scares me.
Seeing old people makes my heart hurt every time. When I see them alone, I think about why they’re alone, who they still have with them in their life, what they still have to do to keep going until the end. When I see an old couple, I think about how many more precious years, months, or days they have left together, before the bearded old man upstairs splits them apart with death.
Either...
2 tags
There is no mystery to happiness.
Unhappy men are all alike. Some wound they suffered long ago, some wish denied, some blow to pride, some kindling spark of love put out by scorn - or worse, living each day within a shroud of yesterdays. The happy man does not look back. He does not look ahead. He lives in the present.
But there’s the rub. The present can never deliver one thing: meaning. The ways of happiness and meaning...
